Come, Play With Me

2007-05-14T01:32:00.000+08:00

All good things come to an end. And all ending are new beginnings.

i believe we were meant to be, just that it is not the right time. for the time been, we should understand each other more.
134 days

2007-05-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweight the one you wish you had back.
What if you got it back?

treasure as if it was the last day

2007-05-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

Day 2 Sales.
UGLY Singaporeans.
OCBC Titanium card holders behaved like shits. same goes to the rich people. DISGRACEFUL!
Singaporeans cant read english. they need to be told what is written on the signages. especially the no trying sign.
They can wait up to 2hours in the shop just to get replenished items.
arguements, complains, and the lists goes on.
nonsense customers. but still there are nice one (:

we spent 3hours tidying up the store. and i curse and swear throughout it. one word, PISSED!

worried still

2007-05-01T02:02:00.000+08:00

you're not alone, together we stand
i'll be by your side
keep holding on, just stay strong
'cause you know i'm here for you
so far away i wish you were here
before it's too late this could all disapear
before the doors close, this comes to an end
but with you by my side
i will fight and defend
hear me when I say
i believe nothings gonna change
nothings gonna change destiny
what ever is ment to be will work out perfectly
'cause you know i'm here for you

keep holding on

2007-05-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

day one of sales was mainly for VIPs only and i worked like hell already. my cough worsened my day. customers wise, i felt like killing them all. major F troublesome! i seriously cant imagine when it is open to public on friday! i seriously cant imagine how am i gonna survive for one freaking month!

after my hectic work, i dropped by SGH to see my poor little kevin. he was being admitted due to lung collapsed in tekong. and this brave boy had to go throught this painful process again where he had a chest tube inserted at his right chest. i hope he is fine. gonna make another trip down tommorrow with the guys.

im sick and i want to get well soon. my cough is really killing me!

2007-04-29T21:42:00.000+08:00

I slept for almost 16 hours. then i spent the rest of day watching nobuta wo produce. felt like today is the day where i feel more like staying at home rather than going out.
tomorrow will be the first day of the sales and i was asked to be station at the shoes section. major F i tell you but i hope nothing goes wrong.

so far so good...

2007-04-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

it was a very short last minute meet up with kevin, louis and justin. but still i really enjoyed myself with the guys though i was kind of moody at first. we get to see kevin newly-shaved-hairstyle, so cute! and the video that kevin took where he had his hair shaved really made me feel heartache even though its not my own hair. i cant imagine when im about to get into the army which will be in 2years time.
anyway, i wont be seeing this very good bro of mine for the next few weeks. how sad right! well i will definitely miss him. so please take good care of yourself in tekong! need music can call me and i will play your favourites. till then...

army! now my hair looks long (:

2007-04-26T19:26:00.000+08:00

i dont know if i should even be thinking about other things with my current situation. i have been losing sleep due to work and im sick. its just so mentally, physically and emotionally taxing.

It must be a gift from heaven. A phenomena that I cannot explain, neither do I want it to stop. Im thankful that I have.

Take care!!

2007-04-25T19:44:00.000+08:00

i can keep quiet with everything i am not happy about.
work had been fine but busy. nice colleagues to work with. helping out at the warehouse seems to be more fun than working at the outlet. sales will start next monday and im not looking forward to it. cause my schedule for next week kills! 12hours straight for 5days!

besides work, spending quality times with my buddies were great too. i guessed the only time i could meet nickie and sannie is on monday since nickie doesnt have school on that day itself. and yesterday, i went out right after work with kev, louis and justin. dinner at suntec fei chui la-mian then hang around till last bus. time really flies when you have nice accompanies. looking forward to the next outing where the 4 of us can hang out together again.

i keep holding back cause i cant seem to tell if you are fiction or fact. show me you can laugh, show me you can cry, show me who you really are, deep down inside.

cause everyday, i treasure as if it was the last day.

2007-04-17T19:52:00.000+08:00

amounting the fun i had for the past few days were great. so great that im having a fever right now. but its all worth it since im starting work this thursday. and i detest the weather these few days, so hot that made me want to shower like 3-4times a day.

ice skating on saturday with her, toh, karen and her boyfriend andrew. it was my first time and i find it difficult. difficult to move with two blades attached to the shoes which was super tight to wear. and i have to keep calling for help to prevent myself for doing unglam falls. after that steamboat at bugis for dinner then clubbing with justin at night. we checked out this so call new club and it was rather fun except that the dance floor was small. im so dying to go there again this coming saturday with the others but i have to see how my working schedule goes also.

woke up late on sunday cause clubbing. supposed to meet san, nick n jj for shopping. instead i met them only in the evening at marina for steamboat, again. im so sick of steamboat already. i think i have eaten like 40prawns and kilos of meat for the past 2 steamboat sessions. yuck!

went out with kevin on monday to marina sq for kbox. been ages since i last went there. and we sang from 2-7. satisfaction! then i pulled justin along to meet us at bedok 85 for dinner since he said he was bored. it is funny seeing your own friends getting to know one another.
going out tmr to get my working stuff and have my hair done. my so called rain hairstyle look shitty now. and i dont think i would want to work in a brand with such an fugly hairstyle. and one more thing, why do i have to look for a job in a design company? so what if im a design student. its not like you wont gain any experience next time or what. im happy with what im doing now even though its not design job (:

BUU-YOTCH!!!!

2007-04-13T17:09:00.000+08:00

i got a job at a brand and i will be starting next thursday. yes its a BRAND!!
caught mr bean's holiday yesterday with kev. and we bowled two games. shitty scores.
thanks for the converse shoes, wind chime and and....

love bert

2007-04-09T08:23:00.000+08:00

dont compared cause in the first place there is nothing similiar. and think about how i feel first.

its not easy

2007-04-07T16:16:00.000+08:00

Can i have both chocolate and vanilla?

2007-04-04T05:02:00.000+08:00

past few days were alright. dinner with justin at lau pa sat, amk hub with sannie, staying home watching tv and videos, and drawing! yet to do any drawing since school ends and i think i have done a pretty good job too. took me 3days to finish.

i just missed a chance of earning 100 bucks in 2hours! justin recommended me this beer focus discuss group thing and i was shortlisted! they called me in the morning 10 yesterday and i didnt answer the call. infact i didnt even hear my phone ring! i was sleeping like a dead pig can. and even if i call back, no one answer! Argh! and i shall stop being stupid, sitting infront of the computer sending 20 over resumes to agencies since none of them reply.
i will be going to amk for walk-in-interview tmr at Spade and i hope that beer thingy call me up tomorrow again. finger cross!

something missing tonights.

2007-03-30T14:21:00.000+08:00

im not on mood swings. but im feeling sad.
i dont know why. but i love yesterday more than today.

i just feel happier

2007-03-29T06:25:00.000+08:00

went to find her after work. wanted to watch movie but there isnt any late night slots. so we went to play mahjong at nickie's place. i lost a dollar thirty:)
i got back home in record breaking. i walked home from nickie house to my house which was 10bus stops away! i was walking her back home then i didnt want to spend money on taxi fare so i walked! and i was nice enough to even get my brother breakfast! right now my heel bone hurts and im feeling damn shagged!

i shall be a good boy today and stay at home, clean up the house. cause i feel like im living in a pig sty! anyway i had been going out and staying out late almost everyday and sleeping like a pig till late afternoon. should snuggle at home abit, watch tv and videoing online! i haven watch taiyou no uta for days!!! snooze time~

wo pian pian zhi xiang zhe ni

2007-03-27T09:12:00.000+08:00

my two dears tortured me! they made me walked two rounds with them at punggol park in the early morning!
but still i had fun (:

2007-03-25T23:47:00.000+08:00

apologized for the late meet up earlier! was supposed to meet nickie and sannie for mahjong with jing jie at 4 but i overslept. was really tired because i reached home only in the morning. mahjong was alright. took us very long to finish one round. and everyone have stomach aches after dinner. maybe is the curry fish head.

im feeling very tired over certain things. its a topic that i dont like to talk about. i dont ask much from them and i dont like to make them worried. i just ask for abit from the past, where things are ways different from now. but i know, it wont.

a different life

2007-03-24T08:36:00.000+08:00

decided to change my blog to private and invite only certain readers. besides that, i wont be blogging much too.
holidays had been really great so far. so great that i dont have time for myself to have a proper rest. the Girlfrends finally gathered on friday! the 6 of us went for steamboat at bugis and we gossips and cam whores lots! took 4 neoprints! it had been 3 years or more since we all get to chill out together. really missed those primary school days. but it was still as good! i love my girlfriends! and i cant wait for the next outing.

clubbing last week was crap, the music was terrible. but yesterday night was satisfying, music was so much better. its free entry afterall so shouldnt complained much. and i found a new clubmate, justin! but then i need to club less, even though i rarely club nowadays.

and the journey home yesterday wasnt peaceful! people really think that they own the whole bus after paying like 90cents. this bunch of indians talked like as if they were in parliment la! so loud that i can even hear them when my mp3 remixes are blasting into my ears till ear wax are wobbling!
and this old lady doesnt know what hygiene is. she sneezed and coughed like no government business. she even "kaaapuu"and spit her phlegm into a plastic bag! super grossed! i didnt want to miss the great opportunity so video it down! i will try to post the video up in here and stomp.com.sg soon. yes call me meanie deanie!

Girlfriends at steamboat!

neoprint!

and not forgetting justin!

2007-03-22T13:34:00.000+08:00

i lay on the sit up bench, looking up the clear blue sky, with heavy thoughts in my mind.

why am i always tired?

2007-03-21T04:08:00.000+08:00

"is you, i want to spend my life with, forever."

i believe time will lead us to the answer one day. and even if it doesnt, we will find it.

march 22, 2007

2007-03-16T03:02:00.000+08:00

dean hates to be doubt. believe him or leave it.
dean loves instrumental music, but no one knows.
dean hates to take the first step, because he always does.
dean seeks mutual understanding, but it seems that no one could.
dean loves the ones he love. but things dont always turn out the way he wants.
dean values relationships, but a failure in maintaining them.
dean is just a complicated person that no one understands.

2007-03-15T02:31:00.000+08:00

Hello Four Months Holiday!
had been physically and mentally tired for sleeping less than 8 hours in 3days due to assessments. finally i get to breath. yeahness! gonna work during my holidays, enjoy and even more enjoys! so please everyone make yourself available for me.

alrights, i seriously think people with no respect for respectable personnels should be condemned. why say something mean when people sacrificed their sleep, putting in efforts, doing their best to finish what they supposed to do. such comments is not needed. and it would be good to just shut up when you know that your work is good enough.

everyone have been really concerned about me, thanks. but i dont want to think so far. the more you go on, the more you feel like letting go. i can just wait forever for your message. and wonder if you will even massage. i dont know where is this taking us but i just wish that you could be less passive.

the piano version of fields of hope from gundam seed destiny is so addictive. i wish someone could play it just for me (:

i think, i really dont know what i want

2007-03-11T05:31:00.000+08:00

i still haven finish colouring my design drawing. i really hope i finish it on time. cos the clock is still left undone. panic!
sannie and i each brough a mp4 and we gt the same colour (: besides, im jealous of justin chong complexion! haha

the left over colours, dull

2007-03-10T06:34:00.000+08:00

the morning air refreshes my day. and i love their accompanies yesterday night.
glad that i have finished 70percent of my work. it time for me to have a good rest.
dean is tired. really tired...

a picture tells ~~a thousand~~ one word. sadness

i want a tree to lean on, comfortably.

2007-03-07T02:48:00.000+08:00

I HAVE BEEN A COMPLETE SLACKER! others had been working hard and worrying about their assessments.
i finished typography and graphic advertising and visual studies :)

im still left with design drawing, design process and magazine spread. i need to finish them in less than six days. its so hair pulling!

because of you

2007-03-05T12:31:00.000+08:00

what a great morning i had. i woke up feeling uber shitty. i kept thinking about assessments and more assessments. at this crucial time, the afternoon lesson lecturer is on mc. how great! i doubt there is any make up lesson. and since afternoon lesson is cancelled, i see no point going for morning history class which is just 2hours.
so i continued my sleep till annoying smses kept on pouring in. smses which contained needless infos. indeed very pissed with it.

i hope the rest of the day fell into place nicely. and the work loads lessen by night. handphone down, bill not pay.

unhappy? or issit maybe im exhausted?

2007-03-03T05:13:00.000+08:00

school been busy. i dont really have time for myself till yesterday. i finally got to meet her for movie. we watched norbit and the time spent with her was really great!

next week will be damn stressful! gotta rush and finish up all my assesments by 13march. plus there will be days of sleepless nights becuase the crazy school planned to torture us by handing in 4 assesments in 1day!! other than that i shall less COMPLAIN~

dont look at me that way cus i hate it

2007-02-27T02:46:00.000+08:00

im getting tired of it.
did i make the right choice? is this what i want?

feeling hopeless

2007-02-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

an entry before i get started on my assessment. seriously, there are so much waitings for me to do and im about to cry over it. i hate myself for being so lazy, dragging all my work till last minutes. i left with 2 more weeks to assessment week and this will be a tough ride. so finger crossed! hope i dont fail any.

it was really good having the two of them around though i was drained. yesterday was really a very stressed out day. super utterly pissed with some rude, selfish, fake people in school. its just the accompany, other than that nothing else.

gonna start finding job in march. there will be a 4month holiday! yeah-ness! and im still thinking if i should work part-time or full-time. if i work part-time, i would be able to spend more time with her and others but less money earn. and if full-time, not much time spend but more money earn. hmm... suggestions?

ok hitting 8pm soon. off to do my shitty assessments now.

i will survive! independently!

2007-02-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

new year visting comes to an end for now. and i even got my long deserved rest. now got to finish up those 'hair pulling' assesment. pouts

woke up today with this chest pain and aching all over my body. have never felt like this before. i counldnt even have a proper meal. kept wanting to throw out the food that i have consumed. thank god i have no school tomorrow. gonna make good use of it to rest and also to finish up my thurday lesson work. see its all about work work and WORK!

gonna get some sleep now. have been sleeping very late lately and i know it is not good either.

hold back

2007-02-17T03:45:00.000+08:00

i think im getting so tired of everything again. life is starting its swirling staircase downwards again. temper had been very bad these few days. maybe is the lack of sleep that cause. and i get very annoyed when people whined to me about being tired when they can sleep like 8hours a day.

chinese new year in a day time and im not looking forward to it at all. i had been nagging by my parents for not getting any cny stuff. im such a bastard, i used up all the money they gave me on other things instead of my cny clothing. right now im so broke.

its really weird to not feel anything. not exactly sad because there is really nothing to be sad about. on the other hand, there is nothing really to be happy about too. it is just empty waiting for things to fill them in. and i dont know what to expect on what is the fillings.

Pause and Break

2007-02-15T04:52:00.000+08:00

my history essay question sucks to the core! i have to re edit the thousand chunk of words to just hundred. i totally forgotten about the limitation. super shagged please. reached home near 4 and still have to rush for this bitch essay.

valentine's was nice. we watched just follow rules at ps. super funny, two thumbs up for it. then spent the rest of the night at esplande and boat quay (:
on the other hand, im offically broke! gonna drop dead now. its comingt o 5 and i got lessons at 830 later!! crap can!

loves

2007-02-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

shopping was fustrating. i shopped malls and only managed to get a pair of shorts. my mum gonna nag at me again. i really hate cny.
and school is really stressing me out. assesments pouring in are killing me slowly. its so much that i feel like crying. and if i quit school, what can i do? i wish everything can comes to an end without going thru the process.

till then. take care everyone!

2007-02-04T17:06:00.000+08:00

a single soul in three
it had been a long time since the three of us stay out together. so yesterday was really a nice meet up even though e time spent wasnt long. went over to nickie place yesterday with sannie for movies. watched saw 3 and kungfu mahjong 3. saw 3 is crap but i enjoyed all the painful scene. but i almost slept through while watching kungfu because its in canto.
i hope holiday come quick. so that we can meet up more often even though we got different things to busy with. im still into the overseas trip plan!

going to start cracking on my homework soon. pouts

i'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay

2007-02-02T02:16:00.000+08:00

night safari with yl, toh and jas. i enjoyed myself. i really do even though the trip bores me a little. anyway yesterday was me and yl 1 month anniversary. love her to bites. she brought me this really cute couple pillow. i got the girl and she got the guy. so sweet of her (:

his

love

our pillow (:

leave?

2007-02-01T14:06:00.000+08:00

first day of the month and i shall be happy. didnt go to school today even though rashes were better. its just that the mood of going to school isnt there. will be going out later. hope i enjoy.

if you put two and two together, you will see what our friendship is for. you cant work this equation and you left for the door. i know you are going searching although i can still feel ya here. its not the end but it bring tears to the eyes.

i dont want to settle in the "come what may" comfort zone.

2007-01-31T19:17:00.000+08:00

i think i so totally waste my time today by doing so many unnecessary stuffs. i so doomed, i haven touch any work today for tomorrow lessons. sigh i think i will just skip school tomorrow.

2007-01-31T01:40:00.000+08:00

part of me laughs, part of me cries, part of me wants to question why. why is there joy, why is there pain, why is there sunshine in the rain.
one day you are here, next you are gone.

nevermind the pain. hold me back.

2007-01-30T18:13:00.000+08:00

was feeling utterly restless for the whole day and i found it extremely hard to focus in class. especially cpl design drawing class. had to do a montage with 70% painted and 30% collage with a 3D effect and to be submitted on the spot! i was struggling through when painting(everyone should know i suck at painting) and preventing myself from dozing off halfway. as for the outcome of the workpiece, no comments.

i got my room painted! 3 walls are in light cocoa and 1 wall is in galaxy grey-black! love the finish even though my room looks slightly smaller then before. gonna change my queen size bed to a super single size bed. then hopefully there would be enough space for a mahjong table :)
anyway yesterday, the fstarkers celebrated alif's 19th birthday. zee baked 19 cupcakes for the birthday boy. and since he is green colour lover, each and everyone of us got him something small and green as a gift. no picture yet though.

ok thank goodness tomorrow is wednesday, no school! and im looking forward to thursday. not telling why. ok off to take a nap now.

2007-01-29T00:08:00.001+08:00

over and over again, i tried to tell myself not to think so much about it. i wish i had an answer to the questions in my head.

the closer i get, the more im afraid.

2007-01-28T16:26:00.000+08:00

feeling damn shagged now. i didnt sleep a wink. and i still need to catch up with my assignments for this week. pouts~
dinner yesterday with sannie at hg mall. then train to compass point to search for present but nothing nice. coffee at starbucks was pleasured.
took a taxi down to kev house at tampines for mahjong with his two friends, sock ling and wanyi. very last minute call because they were unable to find other player. well im such a lucky kid. i won the first 6 round consecutively. it was definitely the guys night.

okay the ballads on the media player is making me sleepy (:

i never want to say good-bye
i never ever want to say good-bye

2007-01-27T02:40:00.002+08:00

stress is slowly creeping into my head. the assignments for term 4 arent gonna be easy. graphic ad is already a major killer. i swear i was freaked out by jeffery wong words.
and i feel im doomed for the rest of cpl design drawing lesson. because we must submit our work on the spot. so finger cross, painting next week.

i know i keep whining about my school stuffs but i have no idea on why i cant get this feeling off. well too bad, im sick of this life even though this is what i love doing. and anyway, i got a 4 months break after i finish this term. its damn long can! by the time school reopen in july, i doubt i still got the mood to study. quitting school is more likely by then.

okay im still kinda awake after sleeping for just 4hours. was rushing to finish up my macromedia yesterday. well its still kinda incomplete because of the chinese words. was about to drop dead so i just simplify it. and the printing sucks! soft copy look so much more nicer! haha~ before i log off, here is the magazine cover. it look so last minute work ):

they were not long enough

2007-01-23T00:58:00.000+08:00

first day of school, ultra boring! so sick of seeing those people. but i brought a new pair of slipper from NUM and its white (:
but again im mad at my homework. i scribbled through my comic drawing for tomorrow. it look shitty. also i hacked the movie poster sketches (:
i choosen a sucider history essay question ):
double F to the stove for not working. now i gotta go sleep with an empty stomach ):

in life, when you dont get what you want, you whine about it.
but when you get what you want, do you really want it anymore?

2007-01-22T01:32:00.000+08:00

term 4 begins tomorrow. i tell you i seriously dont want to go back school. no mood at all. i know this term wont be sweet. but after all, i enjoyed my holiday.

went vivo with toh n co yesterday. and i surprised them something. everyone was smart to predict that except for toh. anyway we wanted to watch Pans Labyrinth but the movie time we wanted was sold out so we watched Feast instead. predictable and stupid and boring and disgusting. so please dont not waste your money, i would rather you guys just give me the 9 bucks. then met kev at harbour nel n train down to chomps for supper. satay still as nice but no more chicken. haha~

okay just nice 2am. and i just finished transfering songs to my hp. shall tuck in now. hopefully i can get to sleep. will be meeting sharon and zee for prata tomorrow! no mood for school still!

misses

2007-01-19T03:08:00.000+08:00

3 postcards, sketches for movie poster, freehand magazine cover and comic drawing.

i just want to concentrate, finish up as much work as i can within one day and not feeling physically tired. i think i sleep too much and its really time wasting. so that would be my goal.
and i will start working on them next week when school starts. for the remaining days, i just want to spend it well with my close friends before my hectic schedules begins next term.

had mahjong yesterday(thur) at toh's place with her sister, jasmine and yl. and i won 2 bucks! her evil yet nice sister kept making fun of me. okay gonna turn in soon. might head out to town later to shop!

to plan B...

2007-01-18T18:10:00.000+08:00

im having a spinning headache now. and my ulcer is hurting me. plus my assignments is driving me down to the grave.

im so lethargic, its showing on my face. i just want to go shopping!
:(

2007-01-17T02:53:00.000+08:00

im really damn slack. i still got loads of assignments to finish by next week and i have two-thirds of it not done. im doomed for sure and i dont think i can finish everything on time as the holiday mood lingers.

im slipping into some stuff again. my mind on and off of late. and they need to be lessen! i got to learn not to think so much. or better not to even think of it. i must!
it struck me hard when i saw that message. i swear i hate the way im feeling but im picking myself up. things have changed. things aint the same as before. no more. just a fine fine friendship.

least i forget, i caught night at the museum yesterday. now i know what gum gum and dumb dumb is all about after seeing like 10 msn contacts having that similar phrase.
okay gonna turn in. shopping for sneaks tomorrow (:

reborn

2007-01-12T02:11:00.000+08:00

nothing much to update. im still enjoying my holiday before school reopen in a week time. and i shall really make good use of the remaining days.

im glad to have met you...

2007-01-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

apologies for not updating. was busy enjoying my holiday. after days of fooling around, i guess its time to start working soon because school will start in two weeks time. homework are still untouch and i actually need to go back school tmr and tues for history and design drawing lesson respectively. i'll definitely skip for sure!
tomorrow is my lao bu birthday! but we celebrated one day earlier. dinner at east coast long beach restaurant. the food wasnt particularly great but i had a great time with my family. love the cheese brownie cake from swiss bake too. too bad someone wasnt there with me. misssed
besides, im excited about getting my room paint this week. choosen a nice warm colour so no more white walls.
and i going for job hunting tmr after accompany my mum to the temple. i need money!

my brother head covered the word 'long'. so he got the 'beach' instead. haha how nice :D

2007-01-03T02:08:00.000+08:00

photos for previous post. enjoy (:

2007-01-02T17:23:00.000+08:00

okay its a new year already. and i got my new year wish. kev knows what is it. i guessed this year will be a very busy year for me.
anyway new year eve was enjoyable with my close friends even though i was still sick and had lost my voice. afternoon activities on that day were cancelled last minute. had no choice but to head down to pasir ris park to join my sec 5 peeps for bbq. not much people attend but it was fun still. met kev for a movie at plaza sing. watched School for Scoundrels. and thanks buddy for the gift! i own you a treat for u know what la haha. met toh, yl, jas n jolin after movie for supper before heading back home. as usual, will upload the bbq photos later.

@ 010107

2006-12-31T03:27:00.000+08:00

i thought i would have recovered from my sick. hell no can! i lose my voice today! in caps, LOSE MY VOICE! why must it happened on the very last day of the year! im not gonna let it spoilt my mood. and people please stop asking me to drown myself with water if not i will slap you. for the past two days, i have been drinking atleast 16x 1.5litres bottles of water. and yet i still can lose my voice! Big F!

tiring and sick day today, infact it happened yesterday saturday. woke up early to clean up the house. not very clean though. then went shopping with my brother n his gf at far east. managed to get some stuffs for myself. then dinner at nooch and lastly a drink at this dono what Trapa Tree Cafe Pub in clark quey. no alcohol for me this time cos of my freaking throat! those who called me earlier should know how bad i sound. ok no more elabouration.

today, countdown 2007! no plans till late evening. sorry guys, wont be going bbq. go also no point because i cant eat also. so other than that please ring me up! till then, next update on 2-0-0-7-!

Happy New Year in advance!!

2006-12-30T02:18:00.000+08:00

ddeanie yearn for something special this 31th december 2006.

it might be a great new year start for me/us

unsure about me?

2006-12-28T02:21:00.000+08:00

my thumbdrive fell into my cup of ice water :(
i hope it is still working. if not i would have to get a new thumbdrive and redo my work. keyword, redo!

your msn personal massage confused me. is the 'we' refering to us? and if is, i probably misunderstood the things u said to me before.

i like when you pinch my arm.

2006-12-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

kbox yesterday with yeelin, toh, cynthia and jasmine was fun. and i regretted drinking house pour and eating so much snacks. right now im sick, down with fever and sore throat. argh!! went to hg ave 10 after that for supper then back to hg plaza again to play pool till 6 in the morning.

ok i got no energy to type on so i shall just stop here. my whole body is aching like crazy.

hougang club

yckps p6

dean yeelin orange cynthia

under the rain, you and me,
one umbrella (:

2006-12-25T06:06:00.000+08:00

been awhile since i last blog. currently having my long awaiting term break after 7 dreadful weeks of school. yea which means that i need people to go out with me! but nonetheless there are still a couple of holiday assignments to finish up. darn!

this weekend was a busy one. catching up with both my primary and secondary school friends. not forgetting my nafa friends either.
was great meeting my two darlings that i have miss so much. bbq at zee's place yesterday evening was nice. love the turkey! and christmas countdown at town with primary cliques was fun. and jack freaky magic tricks was cool. im still figuring out the mystery of the freaky telephone call trick and money exchange trick. haha~
and thanks for all the presents. i feel so bad that i didnt get anything for everyone. nvm next year i will (:

okay, im off to bed. since thurs, i only get to sleep for less than 5 hours. and i might be going out later again. i hereby wishing everyone a warm christmas and best wishes. and mr teo wei xiang please get well soon k! i still wana meet u on new year eve. haha~ ok will try to do a photo blog the next update.

still, it was nice to see her...

2006-12-07T02:52:00.000+08:00

blame myself for being such a sad person. and i am really tired these days, so stop nagging.

somehow i wish someone could understand me more...

2006-12-06T20:28:00.000+08:00

ayumi hamasaki's new pv, momentum. one of the best videos i seen. love the song too (:

2006-12-05T03:07:00.000+08:00

next few weeks will not be sweet. deadline to final assignments is drawing nearer and i haven done much work. according to the demand, im already stressing out.
others classes have already started working on their final assignments while my class is still doing those daily assignment crap.
conclusion, i only gt 1 freaking week less to finish atleast 5 of the module assignments by 22dec!

god bless me.

2006-12-03T04:06:00.000+08:00

im not sure of my feelings now. i guess i will just wait for things to fall into place. right now, i just wana be alone.

suddenly, i feel so tired...

2006-12-02T03:21:00.000+08:00

i thought i could go to bed feeling good and now i cant sleep. its so frigging hurts. i shouldnt have asked you that.

sigh~

2006-12-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

yesterday was sharon 19th birthday. its her first time not celebrating her birthday with her family and friends in macau but us in singapore! hope she likes the mini surprise.
p/s the cake from swissbake is damn sweet but sinful :)~

ok i look damn buang in that group photos, as well as the others which i will not post. well actually i haven had a good sleep for days. everyday rushing for assignments till 3am. im seriously drowing in my school work and the homework list goes on non stop every week. sigh~
besides, i meet up with jas and hudah yesterday for dinner at swensen. miss both of them so much. next meet will be going to tampiness ikea!

2006-12-01T04:21:00.000+08:00

finally finished my trexi assignment for tmr. i almost died right infront of the computer. ok i gonna sleep now. haven slept a wink yet. will update soon.

Happy 19th Birthday Sharon! :)

2006-11-25T01:08:00.000+08:00

"what do you think of when you see a cloud"

i said, i think of you.
she said, i think of you too.
(:

sorry for being busy lately. will spend more time with you.

2006-11-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

so many things to do, so little time...

went back school late today. pass jason his thumbdrive then joined the rest at the computer lab to do macro free hand. supposed to do my work but i ended up chatting. and my home desktop doesnt wana work with me today. kept hanging and auto shut while working with that stupid software. managed to meet up with kevin for a drink and louis for dinner at ps. it feels great to meet up with friends for a chat.

anyway, adi and sharon told me that they gonna rent a manionate near my house (10mins walk) meaning if they rent it, we can go to sch and go home together. yay~ and we even plan to have a christmas party! well, if only they rent lah~

ok im so gonna die in school tomorrow. cause i haven done any shit work for graphic ad. yea~ D I E ! friday work is still unfinished. sigh~

2006-11-21T15:55:00.000+08:00

i have decided to change my msn address. reason i cant view some of the contacts in my list due to the massive number of contacts i have now.
add me in new msn at ddeanie@hotmail.com. will hold on to my current one till i get some changes done, so dont delete first.

thanks and sorry for the inconvenient cause.

2006-11-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

homework are still unfinished and im slacking here and there. meanwhile im trying my best to make myself feel that this semester is interesting. but i skipped another lesson today. its that fundamental studies which i totally have no interest in it.

just finished my 'upstairs downstairs' model for tmr. and im so unsatisfied with it. its far from what i expected in the beginning. but im just gonna close one eye. i spent like days thinking and hours building that ugly 2storey high paper structure can. and this is the only best angle of the whole structure.

ok gonna make a few phone calls now and head for bed. im drained~

2006-11-19T21:55:00.000+08:00

i cannot be an architect. thats why im not in interior design.

soon you will know why.

2006-11-19T14:37:00.000+08:00

yesterday went for midnight movie with shaun. watched final call. and the sittings we got were rather bad, 3rd row starting from the front even though it is a 9 row theater. my neck almost break after the movie ended. but anyway the movie was nice. it is one of the best horror movie i have ever seen so far.

ok back to school work. gonna start working my ass off at 2.38pm. tons of assignments awaiting for me to do. work for the best!

gei wo ni de ai

2006-11-17T00:42:00.000+08:00

show me that you are serious, if you are not, let me know.
at least i can numb that feeling and let it die.

i still believe there is something special in you

2006-11-16T17:50:00.000+08:00

i want to say im proud of myself. because i played truant for graphic ad lesson today. im such a naughty boy. but hey atleast i went for design process lesson in the morning. LOL~
so i skipped lesson and went for movie!! watched Colic with sharon, alif, zee and sushi. im so gross out with all those bloody scenes la. and we were all screaming and shouting inside the theater as if we own it. haha~ overall i find the show average, wasnt that scary but thrilling.

digital art tmr. plus a list of homework to do during weekend. pouts
i wana go out :(

when will my rainbow appear?

2006-11-14T16:46:00.000+08:00

school have never as fun as before. i miss those days in semester one. honestly i dont really quite like the things im doing right now even though vc is what i wanted. im not trying to say that i hate all the modules but just some of them. one good example will be fundamental visual studies. i seriously got no idea what the hell is this lesson all about. and the assignment given for this module is really clueless. sucks...

and one thing i really wana comment on is my class. they really damn slack la! during cpl lesson, none is doing the upstairs downstairs thing. perharps just a couple doing 1 or 2 pathetic staircase and thats it. while the rest is like in their own world. only the 1T's peeps did their work. and worst of all, cpl commented that my structure is very ugly done! like hello bald head!? atleast i made the effort to do build out unlike the rest. plus im here doing vc not interior! it is so unfair and unreasonable for him to comment on us instead of the rest. and we are so far behind schedule! he and his stupid never-use-brain-think comments turned me off completely!

thank goodness there is no school tmr. im feeling abit sickly right now. anyway, im thinking of changing my email address. i dont like the current one im using. but if i change, i need to re-add my msn contacts and do some changes in email here and there. yeah sounds troublesome, but i still gonna do it! not now but later. will update on that.
ok gonna go rest for awhile. having a bad headache now :(

is there anything in common in us that i can like you?

2006-11-12T20:24:00.000+08:00

there is school tomorrow and i dont even feel like going! cause there is fundamental studies which will bored me to hell. more on, i haven even do my research for dono what lesson lah. i feel so lost suddenly.

someone wants me to be nice again and not talking about the past anymore. but somehow, something in me is unsure about you being serious this time. cause you already gave me a cowardly impression in the first place. do something then, prove me wrong.

sadly, Anchal was eliminated in this season of antm. hope the twin wins!

2006-11-11T07:13:00.000+08:00

i had so much fun with my sisters last night. we went kbox till 4am at cine then we cab down to geylang for youtiao. i haven seen them for such a long time, especially cynthia. we haven met for 6years! can u believe it?! and we had so many things to talk about. from primary school days to now and even future! it feels so good to meet up with them after all these years. all those memories will always be remembered. and do keep in touch even after 10years later! haha~ dont forget the chalet plans too girls (:

besides, i went for the hair show with jason. loads of people turned up. i was kinda bored and tired, kept yawning not stop. then we headed back to hougang plaza at 3pm to play o2jam. fuck the keyboard there. its worst than my house keyboard! was kinda frustrated that i removed the 'F' key on the keyboard. LOL~
supposed to go for the De QUATTRO Trek with my nafa peeps. but it have been raining for the whole day so we decided not to go. it might be flooded. and i seriously need to get my dinner soon! but its still raining and i dont wana use an umbrella too. bleah!

rainy day, nice if there is someone to snuggle in bed with (:

2006-11-10T19:46:00.000+08:00

macromedia freehand isnt fun at all. i almost feel like switching off the computer and just sleep through that lesson. and the lecturer teach until damn fast la. like kanjiong spider. sharon and i catch no balls at all. but nvm, atleast she gave us the illustration tutorial to read through. and i gonna start reading it later. hardworking huh?

and i will be meeting up with my sisters soon. yay~ still no idea where to go. most likely going clubbing i think.
im so tired now and i feel like sleeping. but i can only sleep for 1hr :(

2006-11-10T11:01:00.000+08:00

school works are starting to pile up, and they are not as easy as what i thought. hope i can managed them well.
met brother cal yesterday after school for movie and we watched material girls. not that bad. more on, the weather yesterday almost freezed me to death. hope it doesnt rain later because im gonna wear slipper to sch. yea having digital art lesson at 230 with sharon n com. weee~
i think i will be meeting my sisters tonight! yea! but no idea where those girls wana go. take them ages to decide one thing.

okay im off to lunch right now. heading back school in 2hours time. but before i go, i wana say something to some people,

s - h - u - t - u - p ! (:

"if you wana be a designer, be a good designer."

2006-11-07T15:22:00.000+08:00

second day in school. to be honest, im not enjoying at all! lessons are still acceptable. except for fundamental visual studies. its one of the most stupiest module that ever exists. plus design drawing is a hell combination of 3D, figure drawing and basic drawing! and the first assignment given is to build a two storey high building with stairs! hello im in vc, not interior! now i really feel like killing myself!
classmate wise, dont bothered asking. its like three classes in a classroom instead of one.

besides, harry stayed over at my place yesterday. and i had a hard time dragging that dead kid out of my bed. he had nearly 14 hours of sleeps and still complaining tired! i only slept for 4 hours loh! and i only had 1 meal since yesterday. how pathetic?!

anyway, no school tommorrow (:

need love

2006-11-06T00:39:00.000+08:00

a taiwan movie trailer and i find it interesting (:

2006-11-04T16:56:00.000+08:00

i hurt my right ear when im digging ear wax. AND IT HURTS LIKE HELL LAH!!

=(

2006-11-04T04:17:00.000+08:00

i feel like im invisible to some certain people. one trying to avoid me while another tries to act like we are both strangers.

F!

and dont pretend that you never read my blog.

2006-11-02T08:27:00.000+08:00

i cant believe how a person can change so drastically. from someone who love you so much that is willing to wait, to someone who totally forgets about you after knowing more people. and it saddened me when i got ignored in msn after saying "hi". to be honest, im just disappointed with the person i know. there are so many things that i want to say, whether to them or in this space. but somethings can only go to a certain point of limit.
and suddenly i feel like a use and throw toy.

i admit i was getting stressed up thinking about the past and that perhaps it aint easy to let go at all. i guessed i just need a lot of time to get over it, slowly...

love is like a game, is either you win or you lose.
i have lost mine by giving my heart away.

2006-11-01T20:27:00.000+08:00

just got my new timetable. and i love the schedule!! because wed GOT NO SCH!

monday- 1130 to 1720
tuesday- 830 to 1420
wednesday- NO SCHOOL!!
thursday- 830 to 1420
friday- 1430 to 1720

the good thing is i have combined lessons with the fstarkers on mon and fri! and also certain days i still get to go to sch with sam and zee. the sad thing is the break in between tues and thurs is very short. plus seeing someone i dont even like at all. initially i even though of appealing the same class as others which somehow later i think it is silly. whatever lah.
fine arts timetable is so crazy scary! i will drop school immediately if im in that department.

2006-11-01T04:14:00.000+08:00

im totally d-i-g-u-s-t-e-d when i see those familiar faces in friendster.
im totally d-i-g-u-s-t-e-d when i see those names appearing in msn.

and i mean totally DISGUSTED!!

i have been fooled by them so many times. so many times that i didnt even know at all... im such a fool isnt it?

2006-11-01T01:48:00.000+08:00

did i even mention how pathetic i feel at times. i dont know why im so good at pretending happy when i know the mood for the day is like shit.
im very stressed, apparently at nothing or something that i cannot figure out. i want to stop whining but i cant seem to be able to find the way of letting it all out. i really wish there is someone comfortable that i can lean on.
life is making me miserable! i just wana be happy...
tell me how am i going to lead my life happily then. i dont know what i want at all now. perhaps i just really want to be alone.
im so tired~

lastly i dont understand why, whenever i treat someone nice, i will ended up hurting myself. i feel like a fool being so nice to them when they dont even give a fucky damn shit about me.

now i gonna rewatch the touching episode of goong and make myself cry.

2006-10-31T23:53:00.000+08:00

i had have enough from all the nonsense around me. this fustration in me is killing me like nuts! i think im truly lost, i feel it.
the sky will never be blue again.

school gonna reopen soon. and im not looking forward to it. everyone is not in the same class as me. big fat sigh~

lin is cheering me up (:

2006-10-31T00:32:00.000+08:00

i realised something. people who are call ~~glenn~~ are mean people! the three whom i know having the same name are not just mean but truely uncivilized barbarians! eww i feel so digusted.

anyway i just finished watching Goong, Princess Hours. the last few episode is so touching! and there will be Goong 2. but in Goong 2, they changed all the main cast so i doubt it will be that nice.
Goong 2 plot: about a prince who does not know he possesses royal blood who is working as a delivery boy in a chinese restaurant. the story is about him entering the palace and what happens after that. (yawn? guy version of chea kyung)

Goong1 and Goong2 casts. compared both, Goong2 cmi la!

2006-10-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

i dont like people to question me so many things. expecially my personal life.

and blogger doesnt want to upload my post. i need to refresh my page like 21548795412 times.

2006-10-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

very very sad and very very mad at two persons. and i doubt those two know that im mad at them. argh nevermind!! my phone is giving me alot of problem. i think i gonna get a prepaid for temporary use. since my phone doesnt wana read my sim card.
and i didnt meet her yesterday due to my phone reason. i guessed she angry. sigh.

someone i dont like is in my new class. damn it! cursed!!
on another note, i love the twins from antm 7. and i just finished watching the lastest episode. now i gonna rot infront of e computer.

michelle and amanda from antm 7

2006-10-28T06:50:00.000+08:00

lalala... i just recieved a letter from nafa and im in Visual Communication!! and i got my class. hopefully my new classmates would be nicer. so anyone in class 1V-VC10?

went marina yesterday for steamboat with sannie, nickie and jinjie. felt super disgusted after eating so much greasy food.
sannie and i stay over at nickie place again. at 2am we encountered a cockroach that is trying to disturb both nickie and sannie sleeps. and since san and i are afraid of cockroaches, the poor nic had to kill that disgusting creature by himself while we hide in the kitchen toilet. lol~ the hilarious part was seeing nickie smacking the poor insect with a broom. and damn him for creating nonsense in my msn conversations.
had a hard time waiting till morning, so i forced the two to watch some educational videos like abortion and autopsy in youtube. haha! and before heading back home, we had breakfast.

oh anyway my hp line gt cut off. shit! nvm will pay later so dont blame me for not replying ur smses. ok im off to bed now. will be im meeting lin later =D

2006-10-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

i had my hair treated at monsoon again! this time round my stylist is on leave so another stylist take over. and she did a great job!! i love my pretty hairdo now although its abit short. anyway i accompanied my mum to ICA building to renew her passport today. then went shopping at bugis and vivo city. nothing much in vivo actually, the same old shops in town. just that the mall is big thats all. well i do love e sky garden over there. nice place to chill out with friends.
i guess thats about all. i haven slept long yesterday so gonna catch a good sleep now.

very narcistic right?

2006-10-25T20:18:00.000+08:00

*SCREAM*
can somebody gun shot me? i did rather bad for my semester one. just got the results from the student net. and i got a shitty D for ink painting/sculpture! i think because ink painting pull my grade down if not i would have gotten atleast a B-grade for that module. damn that old cheena ink painting lecturer. urgh! here is my shitty results..

Ink Painting & Sculpture - D
Basic Drawing & Composition - C
Figure Drawing - B
Colour & 2D Design - A
Photo & Creative Imaging - C
3D Studies - B
History of Visual Arts 1 - B

and dont bother asking me about GPA. they didnt indicate. and pls pray hard for me that i can enter VC!

2006-10-24T04:37:00.000+08:00

i didnt expect for a deep conversation. now lots of thoughts are whirling in my head again. i dont like all these feelings at all!! honestly, i didnt know what to say. i can feel the disappointment in you. so pardon me for that. and stop blaming yourself for not being good.
on another note, i must stop being so virgo, so perfectionist.

"in life, there are very rare chances that you will meet the person you love and loves you in return. So once you have it, dont ever let go, the chance might never come your way again!"
i guessed i had already let go the chance of mine at the very beginning.

Something in me tells me that i should take this journey alone.

2006-10-23T08:07:00.000+08:00

i hate quiet moments. it makes me think too much about my past. these days i have been thinking so much and so hard about it. this pain... i dont know why i always screw myself up.
i want to get out. off the rollercoaster feeling.

half of me wants to give up and just fall back, the other half of me refuse to let that happen.

anw, my obsession is right. the kite flew back even though the string snipped.

life is making me miserable

2006-10-21T19:05:00.000+08:00

things happened here and there. there are happy and sad. i chose to remember the happy ones but the sad ones keep crashing on me.

and im gonna stay with my promise.
two months (:

2006-10-21T08:37:00.000+08:00

new blog layout again and i like it. dont like? thats your problem. off your computer then. im off to sleep, its 830am now. will update later...

2006-10-17T14:22:00.000+08:00

"it hurts me to see you like this."
how bullshit, i think. why not put youself in my situation, how would you feel?

well im cool with all the facts i listed. i just need time to get over all of this.
i have things going in my way. thats me. well what can u say? you dont even know me. LOL~

2006-10-17T07:02:00.000+08:00

this feeling sucks. it keeps bothering me. i dont know why but it feels like its totally my fault. i feel like im a fool. whatever~
waking up is so much easier than going to bed. surprisingly i slept very early yesterday night. yea at 1am! was having a very bad headache. i think its cause by some email that i had recieved, read and replied. how unlucky...
just had my breakfast not long ago. after that going to jog round my area since the PSI read today isnt that bad. oh well, i guess today will be another boring day at home. and i think i will stop blogging for the next few days. theres nothing i can blog, except to bitch and whine about life. yay so thats it. cya around then :)

im just giving each other some breathing space

2006-10-16T19:17:00.000+08:00

I dont know why but i feel more comfortable now. No more pinning on hopes, no more waiting for sms-es or calls.

:)

2006-10-16T07:27:00.000+08:00

the time now is 730am and im enjoying my Don Chicken Pie right infront the computer.
didnt sleep a wink. was in my room the whole night playing with my voodoo doll. in fact Torturing my voodoo doll ;)
and i also found a song that sing to how im feeling. its "ru guo ni hai ai wo" by guang liang.

i feel crappy~